Yeah, that title may seem a bit harsh but I really don't know what else to say. So I know I haven't written in awhile and if you are curious to know why, you can check out my YouTube channel where I have been slowly but surely riding and endless train to nowhere.
I am very harsh on myself so let's just get that out of the way and talk about how I fail at life.
So...
After nearly a year since completing one of the biggest milestones of my life, College. I have yet to find a suitable and sustainable job. It is not for lack of trying, though, I have put resumes and cover letters out to nearly any position that remotely looks like what I majored in, plus receptionist jobs, but that is a bit weird for me since I am a guy (but I still applied). I have heard back from a few of them and many with the same answer. "Thank you for showing interest in our company but we went with someone more suitable for the job. Good luck on your job search."
Okay, that is like the equivalent of getting stabbed, and I have been stabbed repeatedly. I always wonder how someone like myself cannot seem to get a job at all. I worked so hard in college achieving a 3.8 GPA. It is like nothing I did even mattered. I look to the internet to calm my nerves, but all I see is people either talking about how they are so happy to have a job they love or how they couldn't find a job and had to go into something that they never wanted to do.
I know, I sound ungrateful. At least you went to college and have a degree. Why not take a job serving coffee? Where are your priorities? You need money!!
Look I can stare down so many people and spout how I want to do what I love but no matter what, I always get that crap. I am tired of waiting for my dreams, I want them.
So I started a YouTube channel because I wanted to make videos. It was at least close to what I went to school for. (Broadcast Communications) I started making vlogs and got views from some people, then I began eating candy, which garnered a lot of attention from the Germans. German candy video has 11,000 plus views. I enjoy that, and I love hearing what people have to say, but now, It is so overwhelming to make any videos that people want to watch. I don't understand how stupid people can get millions of views and I can't get more than 30 on a video with decent content. Yes, I know about SEO and all that other great stuff people use to get views. I just wanted to do what I love, but now I have no idea what I am doing anymore. I almost feel like I have no purpose, along with no career, no friends, and certainly no creativity.
So much for being happy.
Don't worry though. If you are interested, I am still going to be working on my YouTube channel. I needed to rant about my situation. If I keep everything bottled up, I inevitably will explode (silently though)
Until the world revolves again (hopefully sooner rather than later)...B
Showing posts with label fresh out of college. Show all posts
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Wednesday, October 21, 2015
Monday, August 31, 2015
Good Work,Short Lived
So if you have seen my Youtube channel by now, you would know that I have gotten a job. It is my first big boy job outside of college, actually the first real job I have ever had. If you watch my Youtube channel, you would also know that I no longer work at that job.
I worked for three weeks in a field that I thought was going to take me to my future. It sounded like everything I needed to jumpstart my dreams. Work in social media, film and edit short videos, interview the public, etc. It honestly was all of those things, for the first week on the job and then everything changed.
So let's start at the beginning, a former boss of my brother was looking for an assistant for her representative campaign and she thought of me specifically. I was thrilled to hear this. I had been stuck without a job since my graduation in December of 2014 and with it being August 2015 it was finally time that I get to work. I met with my soon-to-be boss and immediately said yes, the job was everything I needed, and why would I pass it up. The first week, I was constantly working, meeting with people at events, taking photo and video, updating social media, it was great. I had big plans for my boss as her assistant, and I was going to make sure that she had everything she needed. The only thing I didn't know was that she really didn't need me.
The second week of work was sparse and I could barely get in touch with my boss. she would call be later in the day and set up meetings with me or other people. She started to just send me posts to put up on social media, or simply do it herself. The plans and ideas I had talked about for her run for representative had fizzled and failed. She even started to make jabs at my work. I was crushed that what she wanted me to do was not good enough, especially since it was the first time I had ever held a job like that. After a meeting with someone from a different campaign, my thoughts about the job changed and I realized that I was no longer needed. I wanted to quit, but I had no idea what to do.
I stuck it out for the third week and after a Monday of me lounging around my apartment, my boss called me and needed me to film some video for the next day. That day came and went and all I could think about was how shitty everything had turned out. I had to use my own equipment which is semi-professional at best to create professional looking work. Let's just say, it came out subpar. I was devastated and my boss quickly pointed it out, going so far as to insult my intellect and my schooling. I had had enough of work and decided to end it all at the end of the week.
The meeting went well, I no longer work for that person as you already know. I am supposed to do some more work for her, like videos and everything, but she hasn't really said anything and I haven't been paid, so I think I will skip doing that for her. I am truly done with this work and unfortunately I don't know where my next job is going to come along. I have YouTube for now, but even that is starting to frustrate me. I have very few views and only about 43 subscribers. I honestly love all of them so much, but I am so unsure of my future.
Untile the world revolves again....
B.
I worked for three weeks in a field that I thought was going to take me to my future. It sounded like everything I needed to jumpstart my dreams. Work in social media, film and edit short videos, interview the public, etc. It honestly was all of those things, for the first week on the job and then everything changed.
So let's start at the beginning, a former boss of my brother was looking for an assistant for her representative campaign and she thought of me specifically. I was thrilled to hear this. I had been stuck without a job since my graduation in December of 2014 and with it being August 2015 it was finally time that I get to work. I met with my soon-to-be boss and immediately said yes, the job was everything I needed, and why would I pass it up. The first week, I was constantly working, meeting with people at events, taking photo and video, updating social media, it was great. I had big plans for my boss as her assistant, and I was going to make sure that she had everything she needed. The only thing I didn't know was that she really didn't need me.
The second week of work was sparse and I could barely get in touch with my boss. she would call be later in the day and set up meetings with me or other people. She started to just send me posts to put up on social media, or simply do it herself. The plans and ideas I had talked about for her run for representative had fizzled and failed. She even started to make jabs at my work. I was crushed that what she wanted me to do was not good enough, especially since it was the first time I had ever held a job like that. After a meeting with someone from a different campaign, my thoughts about the job changed and I realized that I was no longer needed. I wanted to quit, but I had no idea what to do.
I stuck it out for the third week and after a Monday of me lounging around my apartment, my boss called me and needed me to film some video for the next day. That day came and went and all I could think about was how shitty everything had turned out. I had to use my own equipment which is semi-professional at best to create professional looking work. Let's just say, it came out subpar. I was devastated and my boss quickly pointed it out, going so far as to insult my intellect and my schooling. I had had enough of work and decided to end it all at the end of the week.
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The meeting went well, I no longer work for that person as you already know. I am supposed to do some more work for her, like videos and everything, but she hasn't really said anything and I haven't been paid, so I think I will skip doing that for her. I am truly done with this work and unfortunately I don't know where my next job is going to come along. I have YouTube for now, but even that is starting to frustrate me. I have very few views and only about 43 subscribers. I honestly love all of them so much, but I am so unsure of my future.
Untile the world revolves again....
B.
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